Somedays you wake with expectations…expectations that all will go as you planned…that the sun will rise and the day will move forward with ease for the most part…not perfect…just not too hard.  Somedays I look back to being young…I had my life planned out…the man of my dreams, raising kids with my mom by my side to grandmother them, the perfect job, enough money to not worry, and health….of course health wasn’t an issue…wasn’t even a thought…of course all would be well…of course I’d be healthy…I’d be that do it all mom and wife….juggling life just perfectly and with a smile of course too….   Sometimes life isn’t as we planned.  Sometimes life knocks us down and getting up is hard.  Sometimes events happen unexpectedly and throw us on a total different track than we planned to be on.  Sometimes we need to stop planning and just let God take control.  Surrender.  Sometimes God puts you at such a place that all you can do is surrender – the circumstances of your life become beyond your control.  The careful planning you’ve always relied upon is of no use.  You can plan and you can try…but you can’t control tomorrow and sometimes even the events of the day your in can’t be controlled.   What can you do?  You can put one foot in front of the other and with each step breathe.  Breathe and believe that there is more to the mess your in.  Believe that the God who created heaven and earth is more than capable of carrying you or holding your hand through your darkest moment and your darkest hour.  No…many of my days have not been planned as I would plan them.   Many of my days have been scared by sickness, lonely hours and filled with change.  Change that I didn’t choose, change that I didn’t plan and change that I couldn’t control.  Change is what I’m moving forward with.  Change is what I’m embracing as I let go of my planned agenda and grab hold of His plan for my future.  No…today might not have been planned as I chose, but today I will walk forward with faith in what the Lord is doing in me and in those I love.